Its been awhile since I really lost a race...I never thought that it will actually happen so soon. I remember I was still thinking about the stuff that shouldn't affect me from two months ago at the gun. I know this was no excuse because I never had this problem before. I really changed a lot since she came into the picture, everything has been a downturn since the setback. I know I still want to do well in everything I do, but my morale is just too low, maybe time will really heal all wounds...